The troubled teen industry has been in the limelight lately for its more than questionable tactics to “reform” kids. Add in a heavy dose of religious extremism and you have the sometimes fatal Independent Fundamental Baptist all-girl’s school Ashley attended. The most common sentence was 1 year of brutal manual labor, peer-inflicted punishments and psychological warfare. Find Ashley on Social! IG @ashfilet https://www.instagram.com/ashfilet Facebook https://www.facebook.com/ashley.kellam Our C2C vacation where we can meet you in real life and go on adventures together has 5 spots left! Click here to go to the official booking page https://trovatrip.com/trip/central-america/costa-rica/costa-rica-with-shelise-sola-aug-2024 Support Shelise Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! https://cults-to-consciousness-shop.fourthwall.com/en-usd Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find Shelise on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness https://www.instagram.com/cultstoconsiousness Host Instagram @sheliseann https://www.instagram.com/sheliseann/ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness https://www.tiktok.com/@cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon https://twitter.com/cultstocon Chapter Markers 00:00:00 Intro 00:03:37 How did Ashley's family become involved in the church? 00:06:27 Why Ashley got sent to the girl's boarding school 00:07:48 How did the rules change after joining the IFB? 00:09:59 Boarding school expectations vs reality... 00:15:05 Ashley's game plan for survival 00:18:47 "The Get Right Room" 00:21:03 Ashley's shame and guilt 00:26:24 How the parents were also manipulated 00:29:09 TW: Mentions of su*cide and de@th 00:30:33 What did Ashley learn in school? 00:31:20 Were there other IFB schools? 00:38:59 Forgetting the IFB school 00:41:25 How was Ashley changed after boarding school? 00:43:52 Survivor's Prom 00:49:18 Holding space for yourself 00:57:42 What brings Ashley peace and joy now? 01:04:00 Linda, listen! Theme Song Produced and Composed by Christian Guevara **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**

Content Warning: Discussions of @‌buse of children, including ince$t. Those who want to support Amanda can do so here: https://venmo.com/u/Arae18 https://paypal.com/paypalme/AmandaRaeGrant The Kingston Group, founded by Elden Kingston, has a complex hierarchy where Ortell emerged as a leader, introducing incestuous practices. From bloodline beliefs linking them to Jesus to intricate rules dictating marriages, the Order's control over its members is striking. In this gripping interview with Amanda Rae, we dive deep into the secretive world of The Order, exploring its history, shocking practices, and the personal experiences of those raised within it. Amanda unveils the manipulation and trauma faced by women, the indoctrination of children in their schools, and the stark realities of life under polygamous marriages. Revealing her own journey, Amanda shares her struggle for freedom and the challenges faced after leaving. Her recounting of institutionalized financial fraud, emotional manipulation, and attempts to break free from The Order's grip are both heart-wrenching and eye-opening. Tune in for an insider's perspective, confronting the darker aspects of cults, survival after leaving, and the ongoing healing process. Amanda's channel: @TheAmandaRaeGrant Episode Show Notes: https://www.mormonstories.org/portfolio-items/escaping-latter-day-church-of-christ/ Chapters 00:00:00 Beginning 00:01:50 Background of Kingston Group “The Order” 00:06:10 He died because they didn’t believe in doctors 00:09:20 Ortell introduces incest into the church by marrying his own niece 00:13:50 Background on The Order 00:15:30 Blue blood, Kingston bloodline is directly linked to Jesus 00:17:45 Rules of Kingston “direction from God” on who to marry 00:20:37 Child brides 00:24:55 Paul’s sermon, teaching men how to impregnate a woman with a female child 00:29:15 Two main rules: polygamy and consecration 00:30:00 Law of Consecration 00:33:45 Anne Wilde 00:36:35 Where the group is located 00:40:00 Tax fraud, they stole half a billion from the government 00:43:50 Bleeding the beast 00:45:15 Beginning of Amanda’s story 00:47:30 How her mom converted into The Order 00:51:20 The men don't want accountability it’s not about getting caught 00:52:20 Her mom had five children, Amanda was the second 00:56:00 Law of Sarah - wives giving consent 00:59:50 The Order has its own elementary school - Ensign Learning Center 01:01:40 “Numbered men” 01:12:13 How they dressed, rules around media and diet restrictions 01:17:50 Attending a public middle school 01:18:45 Teachings surrounding race 01:24:20 Escaping polygamy TV series 01:27:30 Figuring out who her dad is 01:38:07 Her mom was working to take care of ten kids 01:39:45 Private Banks Fidelity Funding Kingston Bank 01:45:45 Going to Penn Foster Homeschool 01:54:50 The breaking point for her 01:57:00 Dating a man from the Order 01:58:50 The day she finally left 02:00:10 When she ran away the last time 02:04:30 Story of friend wanting to leave The Order 02:13:00 Leaving The Order 02:17:15 Reconstructing after leaving the cult 02:20:30 She got married to someone who’d left The Order 02:21:50 What the Kingstons believe about being gay 02:22:22 After seven years she filed for divorce 02:23:19 Being part of Escaping Polygamy TV Series 02:28:55 She knew she would be exposing them when she got out of the cult 02:30:20 What it was like being on the TV show? ___________________ At Mormon Stories we explore, celebrate, and challenge Mormon culture through in-depth stories told by members and former members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints as well as scholars, authors, LDS apologists, and other professionals. Our overall mission is to: 1. Facilitate informed consent amongst LDS Church members, investigators, and non-members regarding Mormon history, doctrine, and theology 2. Support Mormons (and members of other high-demand religions) who are experiencing a religious faith crisis 3. Promote healing, growth and community for those who choose to leave the LDS Church or other high demand religions 🤝Help us continue to deliver quality content by becoming a donor today One-time or recurring donations: https://donorbox.org/mormon-stories?d... Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/mormonstories Venmo: https://account.venmo.com/u/mormonsto... Paypal: https://paypal.me/mormonstories Join this channel to get access to perks: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCx6OgmoqJbOVRq-Lv1P7SzA/join Our Platforms: 🌐Mormon Stories Blog: https://www.mormonstories.org/episodes 🎙️Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/mormonstories ✳️Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/4sDzk7d... 🍎Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast... 🖼️Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/mormstories 📱TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@mormonstories... 🎮Discord: https://discord.com/invite/kuX5p6yyjF Contact us: 📧 MormonStories@gmail.com 📬PO Box 171085, Salt Lake City, UT 84117

At 11 years old, due to a neglectful and dangerous home environment, Rachel was forced to sell herself for food and clothing. Determined to find a loving community coupled with a thirst for spirituality and religion, she ended up joining the local Mennonite church. She later discovered that 2 men who had been her clients as a child, were part of this church. When she confronted leaders about their behaviors, now understanding their actions were wrong, she was told that she was not to be believed because she was not a baptized member yet. This was only the beginning of how she was tossed around as “damaged” or “promiscuous” between countless settlements and treated like property. Stay tuned for part 2 where we more fully discuss the California cult and how she deconstructed. Watch pt 2 of Rachel's interview: https://youtu.be/nuLZVKOURJo?si=98jzPA9sf-ZIaXaO Watch Rachel's follow up Live chat: https://www.youtube.com/live/j8WfeXG3Un0?si=YdaB88zJaZAl7IIf Find Rachel on Social! IG @Rachelcarter14 https://www.instagram.com/rachelcarter14/ Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! https://www.youtube.com/@CultstoConsciousnessClips Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! https://cults-to-consciousness-shop.fourthwall.com/en-usd Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness https://www.instagram.com/cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann https://www.instagram.com/sheliseann/ Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ https://www.instagram.com/jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness https://www.tiktok.com/@cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon https://twitter.com/cultstocon Chapter Markers 00:00:00 Intro 00:03:51 What Rachel's family was like growing up 00:08:27 Visits from CPS and the chaos they brought 00:09:50 What going to church was like as a kid for Rachel 00:11:50 A Mennonite family moves to town and invites Rachel to their church 00:17:48 How not being believed by church members potentially cost a life 00:21:17 How ab*se at home lead to Rachel moving in with a family from her church 00:23:40 Rachel was stripped of her identity 00:25:30 Medical care in the community 00:29:04 How mental health was viewed in the church 00:29:21 CW: r*pe, infant mortality 00:30:28 Rachel completes her education but hits rock bottom 00:33:25 How victim blaming divided Rachel's new church and dictated where she could stay 00:34:54 Rachel is cornered and given an ultimatum 00:37:22 Rachel's harrowing experience at Lighthouse Haven 00:49:19 Rachel returns home and a church family breaks the church rules for her 00:49:50 CW: attempted su*c*de 00:53:30 Rachel sees a secular counselor for the first time 00:54:29 Rachel is given another ultimatum in her community 00:58:35 Rachel escapes Kentucky with the help of another community family 01:04:20 Ohio is not the haven Rachel thought it was going to be 01:08:57 Rachel joins a Beachy Amish church and how those rules still impact her today 01:12:15 Rachel begins to tell her story in a public setting 01:16:34 Rachel's turning point that made her finally able to leave the Mennonite churches 01:25:23 How sharing stories is validating and brings awareness to unhealthy situations 01:30:02 Linda, listen Theme Song Produced and Composed by Christian Guevara **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**

Blamed and shamed for sexual sin she never committed, Jess was forced into multiple IBLP training centers for “bad girls” where she was put on a no-speak order for weeks at a time. Punished for asking for basic needs during extreme manual labor in the intense heat, she constantly felt to blame for not measuring up to impossible standards. Her story is one of perseverance and strength as she finally finds her way out of the cult and begins to acclimate to the completely foreign outside world. Support Shelise Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find Jess on Social! TikTok: @jessisserious Find Shelise on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness https://www.instagram.com/cultstoconsiousness Host Instagram @sheliseann https://www.instagram.com/sheliseann/ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness https://www.tiktok.com/@cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon https://twitter.com/cultstocon Theme Song Produced and Composed by Christian Guevara 00:00:00 Intro 00:02:26 Jess's reactions to going viral on tiktok with her IBLP story 00:03:04 Brief intro to IBLP (Institute in Basic Life Principles) 00:04:46 A deeper look into the authoritarian doctrine 00:07:28 How her mother's infertility affected her mental health 00:09:31 Jess's home life before being sent to a training center 00:11:43 The de-humanization of her no-speak order 00:12:37 Why she was sent away to a camp for troubled youth 00:15:20 TW: Child abuse- Her mother followed the abusive book "To Train Up A Child" 00:20:22 What her first rehabilitation training center was like 00:24:06 How spiritual was Jess going into the center? 00:26:18 The guilt and shame from being sent away 00:28:17 Shaming and blaming for a man making comments about her being beautiful 00:31:39 What was the "benefit" of the no- speak order? 00:32:41 A cruel sleep deprivation punishment with reading and writing 00:35:49 Average age of child who pays to do free labor there 00:39:01 IBLP believes (like scientology) that teens are full adults 00:40:15 If you don't follow these enforced rules, you'll get kicked out of ATI/IBLP 00:42:58 Her next post: housekeeping for a hotel run by IBLP 00:49:42 Her hindsight perspective on her childhood 00:53:43 She went back to the cult 9 months after she left! 00:56:46 Her personal impression of Bill Gothard 01:01:20 A timeline of all the training centers she was sent to 01:04:11 Jess's experience with ALERT (their paramilitary group for teens) 01:06:13 How her experience in Africa helped her wake up 01:10:47 Navigating the new world outside the cult restrictions 01:14:25 Grappling with extreme black and white thinking 01:19:22 Navigating her peace as a parent 01:24:08 A good resource for affordable therapy: Better Help 01:25:01 Linda, Listen **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**

TW: DV, SA, R*pe Tia Levings discusses her dark reality in Christian fundamentalism, with evangelical patriarchy and religious trauma. Having appeared in the Amazon docu-series, Shiny Happy People, and written a harrowing memoir, A Well-Trained Wife she reveals how she had to save herself and her family and details the ways that extreme views can manifest in a marriage. Recruited into the fundamentalist Quiverfull movement as a young wife, Tia Levings learned that being a good Christian meant following a list of additional life principles––a series of secret, special rules to obey. Being a godly and submissive wife in Christian Patriarchy included strict discipline, isolation, and an alternative lifestyle that appeared wholesome to outsiders. Women were to be silent, “keepers of the home.” Tia knew that to their neighbors her family was strange, but she also couldn't risk exposing their secret lifestyle to police, doctors, teachers, or anyone outside of their church. Christians were called in scripture to be “in the world, not of it.” So, she hid in plain sight as years of abuse and pain followed. When Tia realized she was the only one who could protect her children from becoming the next generation of patriarchal men and submissive women, she began to resist and question how they lived. But in the patriarchy, a woman with opinions is in danger, and eventually, Tia faced an urgent and extreme choice: stay and face dire consequences, or flee with her children. Pre order Tia’s book: A Well-Trained Wife https://tialevings.com/ Find Tia on social media! IG: @tialevingswriter www.instagram.com/tialevingswriter https://substack.com/@tialevings The Anti-Fundamentalist Our C2C vacation where we can meet you in real life and go on adventures together has 3 spots left! Click here to go to the official booking page https://trovatrip.com/trip/central-america/costa-rica/costa-rica-with-shelise-sola-aug-2024 Support Shelise Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! https://cults-to-consciousness-shop.fourthwall.com/en-usd Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find Shelise on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness https://www.instagram.com/cultstoconsiousness Host Instagram @sheliseann https://www.instagram.com/sheliseann/ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness https://www.tiktok.com/@cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon https://twitter.com/cultstocon CHAPTER MARKS 00:00:00 Intro 00:05:07 How Tia was raised that led to falling prey to her husband 00:09:32 Did Tia's parents read her book? 00:13:15 Nightmarish doctrine Tia learned in her youth 00:16:26 Tia's husband didn't believe in consent 00:21:12 All that's needed is a submissive and willing spirit 00:23:37 You will drown in a lake of fire if you are not pleasing to God 00:32:45 Selling the patriarchal movement to women- what that literally means 00:37:22 Not allowed to have anything for yourself as a woman 00:39:02 TW: Domestic ab*se- calling it a "correction" 00:44:37 How Tia emerged from the isolation through secret online communication with women 00:50:18 What it was like being a mother within this ab*sive reality 00:55:49 Tia decided to escape when she saw how it was hurting her chiIdren 00:57:11 Tia's escape story 01:01:41 How Tia's chiIdren handled it all 01:04:48 When did Tia feel safe enough to deconstruct and begin healing? 01:10:53 Advice for someone going through a similar situation 01:16:52 Linda, Listen Theme Song Produced and Composed by Christian Guevara **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**

Claire Headley, President of The Aftermath Foundation, recounts her difficult childhood in the primary hands of Scientology in the UK. Coerced to sign a billion year contract by 7 years old, her life was dedicated to learning how to be the best Sea Org member she could possibly be. Longing to be a “normal” kid like those in her public school, she had plans to escape. Until, a major life event shook her which cemented her beliefs in Scientology. She had no idea the horrors that awaited her when she got to Los Angeles to work for David Miscavige himself. Find and Support Claire! The Aftermath Foundation: http://www.theaftermathfoundation.org/ Her Website: https://blownforgood.com/ YouTube: @blownforgood Instagram: @blownforgood https://www.instagram.com/blownforgood/ Twitter: @claireheadley https://twitter.com/claireheadley Support Shelise Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find Shelise on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness https://www.instagram.com/cultstoconsiousness Host Instagram @sheliseann https://www.instagram.com/sheliseann/ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness https://www.tiktok.com/@cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon https://twitter.com/cultstocon Chapter Markers 00:00:00 Intro 00:03:33 The start of Claire Headley's story 00:05:00 Claire was born into Scientology 00:06:32 Claire's mom joined Sea Org and signed the billion year contract when Claire was 4 00:08:27 Claire's mom brought her in at age 3 00:09:04 Claire's parents divorced because her father left Scientology 00:11:37 Scientologist adults and "children" leaving communally in England 00:11:58 The child cadet organization being trained to become Sea Org members 00:13:57 What they told Claire when she explained she was being bullied 00:15:01 A 16 year old raising Claire and 30-40 other children 00:17:06 The cadets tended to get lice very easily 00:17:45 Claire busted her head open and broke her collar bone, and she kept quiet 00:21:11 Claire knew that as a Scientologist she was different 00:23:40 Claire had an escape plan 00:26:42 Nothing about the manor was representative of what a typical childhood should look like 00:29:35 Anyone misbehaving was separated out 00:29:59 Indoctrinated from birth, there's no way to consider leaving as a child 00:32:33 The breaking point that leads to leaving Scientology 00:33:46 The church provides the illusion of Choice 00:36:41 Conform or face physical ab*se 00:38:01 When Claire was 8 or 9... 00:40:16 Her mom abandoned her for Scientology 00:44:40 Claire's mom was almost told to terminate a pregnancy 00:47:53 No longer in the cadet organization, but still being raised as a Scientologist 00:49:56 What Claire's little sister went through 00:54:24 The harmful teachings taught to Claire as a child 00:59:17 The types of questions teenage Claire had to ask adult Scientologists 01:00:19 Linda, listen Theme Song Produced and Composed by Christian Guevara **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**

**Content Warning: Mentions of SA** Raised in Scientology, at 12 years old, the church accused her of “Instigating” her own S.A., then sent her away to a Scientology boarding school, where the abuse continued. For the first time, Daisy opens up about her unspeakable childhood growing up in Scientology. Learn why scientologist perpetrators are often unpunished, while the survivors suffer in silence. Listen with care. Support Shelise Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann 00:00:00 Content Trigger Warning, Intro 00:02:10 Why Daisy wants to share her story 00:04:34 Daisy's childhood... to her parents, she came 2nd to Scientology 00:07:06 Trauma by the age of 7 00:09:21 What Daisy feels she missed from her childhood 00:10:44 As a child, Daisy parented her parents 00:12:31 Daisy was seen as the cause of her parents' problems 00:14:01 TW - Daisy experienced SA as child from adult Scientologists 00:14:42 TW - Scientologists blamed a young Daisy for the SA that happened to her 00:19:16 Has Daisy been able to unwind the programming and heal? 00:21:25 What it was like being in a Scientology boarding school 00:24:57 What Daisy was forced to do in Boarding School 00:25:49 Were Daisy's parents in contact with her during this time? 00:27:19 Any feelings of grief (or any emotion that wasn't happiness) needed to be hidden 00:28:33 The point Daisy started to question Scientology 00:31:10 TW - Daisy's unspeakable experiences as Staff 00:34:24 Daisy had to continue in the Org until she was 18 to avoid being Declared 00:36:49 TW - More horrible experiences while on Staff 00:41:03 TW - Why are SA survivors the ones blamed? 00:43:03 What it was like leaving Scientology 00:45:49 Why Daisy is worried about this interview / going public 00:47:26 Daisy's words to someone currently in her past situation 00:49:20 What's helped Daisy start to heal 00:51:07 Linda, Listen... Find Shelise on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness https://www.instagram.com/cultstoconsiousness Host Instagram @sheliseann https://www.instagram.com/sheliseann/ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness https://www.tiktok.com/@cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon https://twitter.com/cultstocon Theme Song Produced and Composed by Christian Guevara **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**

*Content Warning: Child abuse* No child should have to endure what Kelli went through. These abusive, Scientology practices were encouraged by the doctrine and the church throughout her entire childhood. I'm amazed at how she has risen above it all and truly embodies compassion and empathy for others who are or have gone through similar abusive situations. Chapter Markers: 00:00:00 Intro 00:02:29 How her parents got involved in Scientology 00:04:09 Her earliest memory as a Scientologist...an exorcism 00:11:59 How being called evil affected her 6 year old self 00:14:02 What the "handling" process was like 00:18:49 What her childhood forced auditing was like 00:23:40 Physical and emotional effects of the trauma 00:25:48 Going to a Scientology school & homeschool 00:29:29 Aggressive verbal abuse called "bull baiting" 00:32:38 She was asked to sign a billion year contract! 00:36:11 What happened when her parents left scientology... 00:41:54 What was the recovery process like? How she escaped 00:57:58 Kelli's tips for healing 01:03:59 Linda, listen 01:05:54 Find and support Kelli! Find Kelli! YouTube: @KelliCopter Instagram: @the_kellicopter https://www.instagram.com/the_kellicopter/ Support Shelise Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find Shelise on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness https://www.instagram.com/cultstoconsiousness Host Instagram @sheliseann https://www.instagram.com/sheliseann/ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness https://www.tiktok.com/@cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon https://twitter.com/cultstocon Theme Song Produced and Composed by Christian Guevara **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**

We have learned about people who grow up in a cultic environment who don’t have a good chance of breaking that cycle while they are still in the cult bubble. But what about the people who understand that ab*se not only goes unnoticed in these cults, but is even celebrated, and they join for this reason? Hannah’s story illustrates how when the outside world can clearly see a group where ab*se thrives, and they don’t want to get caught, they can take advantage of the group’s strict principles in the name of God, putting the most vulnerable at risk. Hannah's book: https://a.co/d/7T4rodZ Follow Hannah on social media: TikTok: @hannahprosser_beat https://www.tiktok.com/@hannahprosser_beat Support Shelise Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Support Shelise Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find Shelise on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness https://www.instagram.com/cultstoconsiousness Host Instagram @sheliseann https://www.instagram.com/sheliseann/ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness https://www.tiktok.com/@cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon https://twitter.com/cultstocon 00:00:00 Intro 00:03:53 Similarities and differences Hannah is aware of between Amish and Holdeman Mennonites 00:06:57 Hannah's life before converting to Holdeman Mennonite 00:10:18 TW: CSA 00:12:32 A false hope for a secular life in the "outside world" again 00:13:22 Surprising things that weren't allowed 00:17:33 Were they allowed to work in the outside world? 00:18:51 What she learned in her private H Mennonite school 00:20:14 TW: CA 00:24:21 TW: CSA 00:28:27 TW: CA-How extreme corporal punishment is used to break a child's will 00:33:13 Strange rules around marriage & claiming a woman 00:35:34 What is the "holy kiss"? 00:40:46 The ins and outs of shunning 00:43:40 Why they can't drive SUVs 00:45:01 Hannah's mindset as a teenager 00:45:46 TW: CA & eating d*sorder- Locked away 00:50:18 TW: CA 00:52:13 TW: Suic*de mentions How Hannah escaped 00:58:48 How she was able to acclimate to the outside world at 17 01:01:23 How Hannah is doing now! 01:04:22 Linda, Listen Theme Song Produced and Composed by Christian Guevara **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**